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Wednesday, 27. October 2010

@@@@@Then the building site is back and still

By francoeursph, 11:22
@@@@@Then the building site is back and still turning on an axle as the windshield pops outPops out? It flies out bent in the middle like a playing-card, and I'm laying on the horn with the points of both elbows, 47 my right arm doing its last jobI can barely hear the horn over the crane's engineLINK-BELT is still moving in, pushing the passenger door, closing the passenger-side footwell, splintering the dashboard in tectonic chunks of plasticThe shit from the glove-compartment floats around, the radio goes dead, my lunchbucket is tanging against my clipboard, and here comes LINK-BELTLINK-BELT is right on top of me, I could stick out my tongue and lick the fucking hyphenI start screaming because that's when the pressure startsThe pressure is my right arm first pushing against my side, then spreading, then splitting openBlood douses my lap like a bucket of hot water and I hear something breakingIt sounds like chickenbones under a bootheelI held Gandalf against me and thought Bring the friend, sit in the friend, sit in the fucking PAL, you dump bitch! And now I'm sitting in the chum, sitting in the fucking pal, it's at home but home doesn't feel like home with all the clocks of Europe ringing inside my cracked head and I can't remember the name of the doll Kamen gave me, all I can remember 48 is boy names: Randall, Russell, Rudolph, Riverfucking- PhoenixI tell her to leave me alone when she comes in with the fruit and the fucking college cheese, I tell her I need five minutesI can do this, I say, because it's the phrase Kamen gave me, it's the out, it's the meep-meep-meep that says watch it, Pammy, Edgar's backing upBut instead of leaving she takes the napkin from the tray to wipe the fret off my forehead and while she's doing that I grab her by the throat because in that moment it seems to me it's her fault I can't remember my doll's name, everything is her fault, including LINK-BELTI grab her with my good left handFor a few seconds I want to kill her, and who knows, maybe I tryWhat I do know is I'd rather remember all the accidents in this round world than the look in her eyes as she struggles in my gripThen I think It was RED! and let her goI held Gandalf against my chest as I had once held my infant daughters and thought, I can do thisI felt Gandalf's blood soak through my pants like hot water and thought, Go on, you sad fuck, get out of Dodge49 I held Gandalf and thought of how it felt to be crushed alive as the cab of your truck eats the air around you and the breath leaves your body and the blood blows out of your nose and those snapping sounds as consciousness flees, those are the bones breaking inside your own body: your ribs, your arm, your hip, your leg, your cheek, your fucking skullI held Monica's dog and thought, in a kind of miserable triumph: It was RED! For a moment I was in a darkness shot with that red

Tuesday, 26. October 2010

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By francoeursph, 11:26
Jimmy choo handbag,chanel purses ,mulberry bayswater,chanel white j12 watch,omega seamaster watch@@@@@I knew it would be healed quickly ?You should have seen her,? Jared repeated in a low voice, still stroking my armIan's fingers brushed across my cheekIt felt nice, and I leaned into his hand when he left it thereI wondered if it was the No Pain or just the joy of saving Jamie that made everything warm and Jimmy choo handbag glowing?No more raids for you,? Ian murmured?Of course she'll go out again,? Jared said, his voice louder with surprise?Ian, she was absolutely phenomenalYou'd have to see to really understandI'm only just beginning to guess at all the possibilities?? ?Possibilities?? Ian's hand slid down my neck to my chanel purses shoulderHe pulled me closer to his side, away from Jared?At what cost to her? Youlet her almosthack her ownhand off?? His fingers flexed around the top of my arm with his inflectionsThe anger didn't belong with the glow?No, Ian, it wasn't like that,? I said ?Of course it was your idea,? Ian growled You have nolimits mulberry bayswater when it comes to these twoBut Jared shouldn't have let you ?? ?What other way was there, Ian?? Jared argued?Did you have a better plan? Do you think she'd be happier if she was unhurt but Jamie was gone?? I flinched at the hideous thoughtIan's voice was less hostile when he answeredBut I don't understand how you chanel white j12 watch could sit there and watch her do that to herself Ian shook his head in disgust, and Jared's shoulders hunched in response?What kind of a man ?? ?A practical one,? Jeb interruptedJeb stood over us, a bulky cardboard box in his arms?It's why Jared's the best at getting what we needBecause he can do what has to be omega seamaster watch

Sunday, 24. October 2010

@@@@@ What an odd egg Hearn is, they sayRemember

By francoeursph, 11:26
@@@@@ What an odd egg Hearn is, they sayRemember last year when he got potted? The last summer before college is a succession of golden days, and shining beaches, the magic of electric lights on summer evenings, and the dance band at the summer bathing club, AN AIRLINE TICKET TO ROMANTIC PLACES, and the touch and smell of young girls, lipstick odor, powder odor, and the svelte lean scent of leather on the seats of convertiblesThe sky always has stars, always has moonlight gilding the black treesOn the highways the headlights lance a silver tunnel through the foliage overhead And he has a girl friend, a great catch, the young beauty at this summer colonyMiss Sally Tendecker of Lake Shore Drive, and the inescapable connotations to come of Christmas holidays, and fur coats, perfume, and college dances in the hue-titled rooms of the big hotels Bob, you drive faster than anybody I know, you're going to kill yourself one of these daysHe's slow at speech with women yet, absorbed for the instant in negotiating the turnHis Buick swings out wide to the left, resists, struggles against going to the right, and then straightens from the turnThere had been panic for a second, and then relief, exultation as he goes streaming down the straightaway I declare you're a wild man, Bob Hearn What goes on in your head, Bob? He parks the car off the highway, turns to her with a sudden abrupt outpouring of speechI don't know, Sally, sometimes I thinkbut that isn't true, I just get all worked up, and I stew around, and I don't want to do anything, I'm going to Harvard just 'cause my father said something about Yale, and I don't know, there's things, there's something else, I can't put my finger on it, I don't want to be pushed, I don't knowOh, you're a crazy boy, Bob, I guess that's why all we girls love you You love me? Just listen to him talkWhy, of course I do, BobbyAcross from him on the leather seat cushions, her perfume is a little too strong, a little too mature for a girl of seventeenAnd he senses the truth beneath her banter, moves over to kiss her with his heart beatingOnly back of it is the forecast of dates at all the holidays, of college weekends, and the identification with this summer resort, and the green lawns in the suburbs, and the conversations with his father's friends, the big wedding You know I can't plan on anything if I'm going to be a doctor, because you know eight years, ten years, it's a long time Bob Hearn, you're conceitedWhat do you think I care? You're too conceited, that's all Now, son, now that you're going away to college, there's some things I want to be talking to you about, we don't get much of a chance to say much to each other but, what the hell, we're pretty good buddies I always like to think, and now that you're going to college, just remember that you can always depend on meThere's gonna be some women, what the hell, you wouldn't be my son if there weren't, not since I been married of course -- a patent lie which both of them ignore -- but if you get in any trouble you can always depend on me, what the hell, my old man used to tell me you get in any trouble with any of the mill girls, you just let me know -- the embarrassing ambiguity of the grandfather who has been sometimes a farmer, sometimes a factory owner -- so that goes for you too, Bob, and remember it's always easier, always more natural to buy a woman off than to get in any alliances with her, so you just let me know, letter marked personal is o

Saturday, 23. October 2010

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By francoeursph, 11:18
replica prada,chanel bag price,mulberry bayswater,chloe white,gucci mens watch@@@@@During the reception people had to take turns to get out onto the columned porch outside the crowded ballroom for a breath of air and a view of the helpless patrol marching in futile discipline along the empty streetRhett had returned to the city that afternoon with the news that Ross was safely in WilmingtonScarlett confessed to replica prada him out on the porch that she'd been afraid to go to the wedding, even with him as escort"I couldn't believe that a bunch of tea-party ladies could lick the Yankee ArmyI've got to say it, RhettThese Charleston folks have got all the gumption in the world"I love the arrogant fools, every one of themI do hope he never learns that he missed chanel bag price the Yankee by a mile, he'd be very embarrassed "He didn't even shoot him? I suppose he was drunk Her voice was thick with contemptThen it skidded high with fear"Then the prowler's still around!" Rhett patted her shoulderRest assured, my dear, you'll hear no more of the prowlerMy brother and little Lucinda's hasty wedding have put the fear of mulberry bayswater God into the Yankees He chuckled with rich, private enjoyment"What's so funny?" demanded Scarlett suspiciouslyShe hated it when people laughed and she didn't know why"Nothing you would understand," said Rhett"I was congratulating myself on single-handedly solving a problem and then my bungling brother went me one better: he inadvertently chloe white gave the whole city something to enjoy and feel proud aboutLook at them, Scarlett The porch was more crowded than everLucinda Wragg, now Lucinda Grimball, was throwing flowers from her bouquet down to the soldiers"Humph! I'd sooner throw brickbats myself!" "I'm sure you wouldYou've always liked the obviousLucinda's way requires gucci mens watch imaginat

Friday, 22. October 2010

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By francoeursph, 03:31
gucci watches ladies,prada bag,gucci backpacks,gold gucci watch,rolex watches for sale@@@@@?Takin' her for a tour of the placeJust like I do for any newcomer There was another low grumble?Can I come?? Jamie askedI saw Sharon shake her head feverishly, her expression outraged?Doesn't bother me? if you can mind your manners I had to move then?to knot my fingers together in front of meI wanted so badly to push Jamie's gucci watches ladies untidy hair out of his eyes and then leave my arm around his neckSomething that would not go over well, I was sure?Let's go,? Jeb said to us bothHe took us back out the way we had comeJeb walked on one side of me, Jamie on the otherJamie seemed to be trying to stare at the floor, but he kept glancing up at my face?just like I prada bag couldn't help glancing down at hisWhenever our eyes met, we looked away again quicklyWe were about halfway down the big hall when I heard the quiet footsteps behind usMy reaction was instantaneous and unthinkingI skittered to one side of the tunnel, sweeping Jamie along with one arm so that I was between him and whatever was coming for gucci backpacks me?Hey!? he protested, but he did not knock my arm awayJeb was just as quickThe gun twirled out of its strap with blinding speedIan and the doctor both raised their hands above their heads?We can mind our manners, too,? the doctor saidIt was hard to believe that this soft-spoken man with the friendly expression was the resident gold gucci watch torturer

Thursday, 21. October 2010

@@@@@er tone was repentant, but I realized that

By francoeursph, 04:21
@@@@@er tone was repentant, but I realized that Walter did not mean as much to her as he did to meNaturally, she was sad that he was dying, but she had accepted that outcome from the beginningI, on the other hand, could not bring myself to accept it, even nowWalter was my friend, not hersI was the one he'd defendedOne of those dim blue lights greeted us as we approached the hospital wing(I knew now that the lanterns were solar powered, left in sunny corners during the day to charge We all moved more quietly, slowing at the same time without having to discuss itIn the darkness, with the odd shadows thrown by the weak glow, it seemed only more forbiddingThere was a new smell?the room reeked of slow decay and stinging alcohol and bileTwo of the cots were occupiedDoc's feet hung over the edge of one

@@@@@(I knew now that the lanterns were solar

By francoeursph, 04:21
@@@@@(I knew now that the lanterns were solar powered, left in sunny corners during the day to charge We all moved more quietly, slowing at the same time without having to discuss itIn the darkness, with the odd shadows thrown by the weak glow, it seemed only more forbiddingThere was a new smell?the room reeked of slow decay and stinging alcohol and bileTwo of the cots were occupiedDoc's feet hung over the edge of one

@@@@@In the darkness, with the odd shadows thrown

By francoeursph, 04:21
@@@@@In the darkness, with the odd shadows thrown by the weak glow, it seemed only more forbiddingThere was a new smell?the room reeked of slow decay and stinging alcohol and bileTwo of the cots were occupiedDoc's feet hung over the edge of one

Wednesday, 20. October 2010

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kelly hermes,chanel cc earrings,new louis vuitton,omega geneve,pasha cartier@@@@@I can hardly walk,I reminded her?I think I'll sit this one out,? Ian said?No,? Wes complained?They've got Kyle and JaredWe're dead without you?I'll? I'll keep score He looked at me, his lips pressed into a thin, rigid line?I'm not kelly hermes really in the mood for playing a game?C'mon, Ian,? Jamie urged?I want to watch,? I said?But it will be? boring if one team has too much advantage?You really are the worst liar I've ever met But he got up and started stretching with chanel cc earrings WesPaige set up goalposts, four lanternsI tried to get to my feet?I was right in the middle of the fieldNobody noticed me in the dim lightAll around, the atmosphere was upbeat now, charged with anticipationThis was something they new louis vuitton needed, odd as it seemed to meI was able to get onto all fours, and then I pulled my good leg forward so I was kneeling on the badI tried to hop up onto my good leg from thereMy balance was all off, thanks to the awkward weight of my sore omega geneve legStrong hands caught me before I could fall on my faceI looked up, a little rueful, to thank IanThe words caught in my throat when I saw that it was Jared whose arms held me up?You could have just asked for help,? he said pasha cartier conversation

Tuesday, 19. October 2010

He wanted her to see where, at the turn of the...

By francoeursph, 10:16
He wanted her to see where, at the turn of the century, a railroad line used to run up into Morristown from Whitehouse to carry the peaches from the orchards in Hunter-don CountyThirty miles of railroad line just to transport peachesAmong the well-to-do there was a peach craze then in the big cities and they'd ship them from Morristown into New YorkWasn't that something? On a good day seventy cars of peaches hauled from the Hunterdon orchardsTwo million peach trees down there before a blight carried them all awayBut he could himself tell her about that train and the trees and the blight when the time came, take her on his own to show her where the tracks used to beIt gucci men bag wouldn't require Orcutt to do it for him "The first Morris County Orcutt, " Orcutt told him at the cemetery, pointing to a brown weathered gravestone decorated at the top with the carving of a winged angel, a gravestone set close up to the back wall of the churchProtestant immigrant from northern IrelandEnlisted in a local militia outfitJanuary 2, 1777, fought at Second TrentonBattle that set the stage for Washington's victory at Princeton the next day "Didn't know that," the Swede said "Wound up at the logistical base at MorristownCommissary support for the Continental artillery trainAfter the war bought a Morristown ironworksDestroyed by a flash flood, 1795Two chanel cambon handbag flash floods, '94 and '95Big supporter of JeffersonPolitical appointment from Governor Bloomfield saved his lifeSurrogate of Morris CountyEventually county clerkThe sturdy, fecund patriarch "Interesting," said the Swede--interesting at just the moment he found it all about as deadly as it could getHow it was interesting was that he'd never met anybody like this before "Over here," said Orcutt, leading him some twenty feet on to another old brownish stone with an angel carved at the top, this one with an indecipherable rhyme of four lines inscribed near the bottomOne died in his thirties but the rest lived long livesSpread out all over Morris CountyJustices of the relojes omega peaceOrcutts everywhere, even into Warren and up into SussexWilliam was the prosperous oneNew Jersey presidential elector in 1828Pledged to Andrew JacksonRode the Jackson victory to a big judicial appointmentState's highest judicial bodyNever a member of the barThat didn't matter thenDied a much-respected judgeSee, on the stone? 'A virtuous and useful citizen' It's his son--over here, this one here--his son George who clerked for August Findley and became a ?- 305 partnerFindley was a state legislatorSlavery issue drove him into the Republican Party As the Swede told Dawn, whether she wanted to hear it or not--no, because she did not want to hear it--"It was a lesson in dior saddle bags American historyHis grandfather was a classmate of Woodrow Wilson'sEighteen seventy-nine? I'm full of dates, DawnieHe told me everythingAnd all we were doing was walking around a cemetery out back of a church at the top of a hill But once was enoughHe'd paid all the attention he could, never stopped trying to keep straight in his mind the progress of the Orcutts through almost two centuries--though each time Orcutt had said "Morris" as in Morris County, the Swede had thought "Morris" as in Morris LevovHe couldn't remember ever in his life feeling more like his father--not like his father's son but like his father-- than he did marching around the graves of those tiffany heart tag necklace Orcut

Monday, 18. October 2010

The daughter has made her father seeAnd perhaps...

By francoeursph, 10:22
The daughter has made her father seeAnd perhaps this was all she had ever wanted to doShe has given him sight, the sight to see clear through to that which will never be regularized, to see what you can't see and don't see and won't see until three is added to one to get four He had seen how improbable it is that we should come from one another and how improbable it is that we do come from one anotherBirth, succession, the generations, history--utterly improbable He had seen that we don't come from one another, that it only appears that we come from one another He had seen the way that it is, seen out beyond the number four to all there is that cannot be boundedHe had thought most of it was order and only a little of it was disorderHe'd had it backwardsHe had made his fantasy and Merry had unmade it for himIt was not the specific war that she'd had in mind, but it was a war, nonetheless, that she brought home to America--home into her very own house And just then they heard his father scream: "No!" They heard Lou Levov screaming, "Oh my God! No!" The girls in the kitchen were screamingThe Swede understood instantaneously what was happeningMerry had appeared in her veil! And told her grandfather that the death toll was four! She'd taken the train up from Newark and walked the five miles from the villageShe'd come on her own! Now everyone knew! The thought of her walking the length of that underpass one more time had terrified him all through dinner--in her rags and sandals walking alone through that filth and darkness among the underpass derelicts who understood that she loved themHowever, while he had been at the table formulating no solution, she had been cartier tank must nowhere near the underpass but--he all at once envisioned it--already back in the countryside, here in the lovely Morris County countryside that had been tamed over the centuries by ten American generations, back walking the hilly roads that were edged now, in September, with the red and burnt orange of devil's paintbrush, with a matted profusion of asters and goldenrod and Queen Anne's lace, an entangled bumper crop of white and blue and pink and wine-colored flowers artistically topping their workaday stems, all the flowers she had learned to identify and classify as a 4-H Club project and then on their walks together had taught him, a city boy, to recognize--"See, Dad, how there's a n-notch at the tip of the petal?"--chicory, cinquefoil, pasture thistle, wild pinks, joe-pye weed, the last vestiges of yellow-flowered wild mustard sturdily spilling over from the fields, clover, yarrow, wild sunflowers, stringy alfalfa escaped from an adjacent farm and sporting its simple lavender blossom, the bladder campion with its clusters of white-petaled flowers and the distended little sac back of the petals that she loved to pop loudly in the palm of her hand, the erect mullein whose tonguelike velvety leaves she plucked and wore inside her sneakers--so as to be like the first settlers, who, according to her history teacher, used mullein leaves for insoles--the milkweed whose exquisitely made pods she would carefully tear open as a kid so she could blow into the air the silky seed-bearing down, thus feeling herself at one with nature, imagining that she was the everlast-419 ing windIndian Brook flowing rapidly on her left, crossed by little bridges, dammed up for swimming holes along vintage omega watches the way and opening into the strong trout stream where she'd fished with her father--Indian Brook crossing under the road, flowing eastward from the mountain where it arisesOn her left the pussy willows, the swamp maples, the marsh plants

Sunday, 17. October 2010

Ashmore, the new Rector of StMatthew's, had been...

By francoeursph, 10:17
Ashmore, the new Rector of StMatthew's, had been chosen because he was very "advanced": his sermons were considered bold in thought and novel in languageWhen he fulminated against fashionable society he always spoke of its "trend"

Saturday, 16. October 2010

Never should have hung up--neverShe'd make him...

By francoeursph, 10:24
Never should have hung up--neverShe'd make him pay a huge price for thatSix foot three, forty-six years old, a multimillion-dollar business, and broken for a second time by a ruthless, pint-sized slutThis is his enemy and she does existBut where did she come from? Why does she write me, phone, strike out at me--what does she have to do with my poor broken girl? Nothing! Once again she leaves him soaked with sweat, his head a ringing globe of pain

Friday, 15. October 2010

Archer remarked, the Roman punch made all the...

By francoeursph, 10:23
Archer remarked, the Roman punch made all the difference

Thursday, 14. October 2010

He loved the America she hated and blamed for...

By francoeursph, 10:27
He loved the America she hated and blamed for everything that was imperfect in life and wanted violently to overturn, he loved the "bourgeois values" she hated and ridiculed and wanted to subvert, he loved the mother she hated and had all but murdered by doing i'f what she didIgnorant little fucking bitch! The price they had paid! Why shouldn't he tear up this Rita Cohen letter? Rita Cohen! They were back! The sadistic mischief-makers with their bottomless talent for antagonism who had extorted the money from him, who, for the fun of it, had extracted from him the Audrey Hepburn scrapbook, the stuttering diary, and the ballet shoes, these delinquent young brutes calling themselves "revolutionaries" who had so viciously played with his hopes five years back had decided the time had again rolled around to laugh at Swede Levov We can only stand as witnesses to the anguish that sanctifies herThe Disciple Who Calls Herself "Rita CohenThey were laughing at himThey had to be laughingBecause the only thing worse than its all being a wicked joke was its not being a wicked jokeYour daughter is divineMy daughter is anything and everything butShe is all too frail and roxanne mulberry misguided and wounded--she's hopeless! Why did you tell her that you slept with me? And tell me that it was she who wanted you toYou say these things because you hate usAnd you hate us because we don't do such thingsYou hate us not because we're reckless but because we're prudent and sane and industrious and agree to abide by the lawYou hate us because we haven't failedBecause we've worked hard and honestly to become the best in the business and because of that we have prospered, so you envy us and you hate us and want to destroy usA sixteen-year-old kid with a stutterNo, nothing small about you peopleMade her into a "revolutionary" full of great thoughts and high-minded idealsYou enjoy the spectacle of our devastationIt isn't cliches that enslaved her, it's you who enslaved her in the loftiest of the shallow cliches--and that resentful kid, with her stutterer's hatred of injustice, had no protection at allYou got her to believe she was at one with the downtrodden people--and made her into your patsy, your stoogeFred Conlon, as a result, is deadThat was who you killed to stop the war: the chief of staff up at the hospital in Dover, the guy who in a small quilted white bag community hospital established a coronary care unit of eight beds Instead of exploding in the middle of the night when the village was empty, the bomb, either as planned or by mistake, went off at five a an hour before Hamlin's store opened for the day and the moment that Fred Conlon turned away from having dropped into the mailbox envelopes containing checks for household bills that he'd paid at his desk the evening beforeHe was on his way to the hospitalA chunk of metal flying out of the store struck him at the back of the skull Dawn was under sedation and couldn't see anyone, but the Swede had gone to Russ and Mary Hamlin's house and expressed his sympathy about the store, told the Hamlins how much the store had meant to Dawn and him, how it was no less a part of their lives than it was of everyone else's in the community

Wednesday, 13. October 2010

miss dwyer, you are pretty as a PICTUREI...

By francoeursph, 10:20
miss dwyer, you are pretty as a PICTUREI CONGRATULATE YOU ON HOW FAR YOU'VE COMENOT EVERY GIRL REACHES YOUR HEIGHTSYOUR PARENTS MUST BE VERY PROUDI THANK YOU FOR COMING TO MY OFFICETHANK YOU AND GOOD-BYEI'm not a picture, MrI'm Mary Dawn Dwyer of Elizabeth, New JerseyI'm twenty-two years oldThat is why I'm here So the deal was cut, the youngsters were married, Merry was born and secretly baptized, and until Dawn's father died of the second heart attack in 1959, both families got together every year for Thanksgiving dinner up in Old Rimrock, and to cartier tank must everyone's surprise--except maybe Dawn's--Lou Levov and Jim Dwyer would wind up spending the whole time swapping stories about what life had been like when they were boysTwo great memories meet, and it is futile to try to contain themThey are on to something even more serious than Judaism and Catholicism--they are on to Newark and Elizabeth--and all day long nobody can tear them apart"All immigrants down at the port Jim Dwyer always began with the portThat was the big one down thereThere was the shipbuilding industry down there too, of courseBut pink vuitton bag everyone in Elizabeth worked at Singer's at one time or anotherSome maybe out on Newark Avenue, at the Burry Biscuit Cookie CompanyPeople either making sewing machines or making cookiesBut mostly it was at Singer's, see, right at the port, down at the end, right by the riverBiggest hirer in the community," Dwyer said"Sure, all the immigrants, when they come over, could get a job at Singer'sThat was the biggest thing aroundThat and Standard OilStandard Oil out in LindenRight at the edge of what they called then Greater ElizabethThe mayor? Joe BrophyHe owned chanel cambon bag the coal company and he was also the mayor of the cityThen Jim Kirk took overOh, sure, Mayor HagueNed, my brother-in-law, can tell you all about Frank HagueHe's the Jersey City expertIf you voted the right way in that town, you had a jobAll I know is the ballparkJersey City had a great ballparkAnd they never got Hague, as you know, never put him awayWinds up with a place at the shore, right next to Asbury ParkA beauti-400 ful place he hasThe thing is, see, Elizabeth is a great sports town, but without having the great sports facilitiesA baseball park chanel jumbo flap where you could charge fifty cents or something to get in, never had thatWe had open fields, we had Brophy Field, Mattano Park, Warananco Park, all public facilities, and still we had great teams and great playersMickey McDermott pitched for StNewcombe, the colored fella, an Elizabeth boyLives in Colonia now but an Elizabeth boy, pitched for JeffersonSwimming in the Arthur Kill, that was itClose as I ever got to a vacationWent twice a year to Asbury Park on the excursionThat was the vacationDid my swimming in the Arthur Kill, underneath the Goethals chanel watch j12 white Bridge

In those days the girls waited backstage while...

By francoeursph, 01:26
In those days the girls waited backstage while the dinners were announcedThere was row after row of mirrors and ables lined up alphabetically by state, and Dawn was right in the liddle of everyone when the announcement was made, so she had i start smiling to beat the band and clapping like crazy because she had lost and then, to make matters worse, had to rush back onstage and march around with the other losers, singing along with MC Bob Russell the Miss America song of that era: "Every flower, every rose, stands up on her tippy toeswhen Miss America marches by!" while a girl just as short and slight and dark as she was--little Jacque Mercer from Arizona, who won the swimsuit competition but who Dawn never figured would win it all--took the crowd at Convention Hall by stormAfterward, at the farewell ball, though it was for Dawn a terrific letdown, she wasn't nearly as depressed as most of the othersThe same thing she had been told by the New Jersey pageant people they'd been told by their state pageant people: "You're going to make itYou're going to be Miss America So the ball, she told him, was the saddest sight she'd ever seen"You have to go and smile and it's awful," she said"They have these people from the Coast Guard or wherever they're from--AnnapolisThey have fancy white uniforms and braid and ribbonsI guess they're considered safe enough for us to dance withSo they dance with you with their chloe white chin tucked in, and the evening's over, and you go home Still, for months afterward the superstimulating adventure refused to die

Sunday, 03. October 2010

The war came along and saved usSeventy-seven...

By francoeursph, 10:22
The war came along and saved usSeventy-seven million pairs of gloves purchased by the quartermasterThe glove man got richBut then the war ended, and I tell you, as far back as that, even in the good days, it was already the beginning of the endOur downfall was that we could never compete with overseasWe hastened it because there wasn't some good judgment on either sideBut it could not be saved regardlessThe only thing that could have stopped it--and I was not for this, I don't think you can stop world trade and I don't think you should try--but the only thing that could have stopped it is if we put up trade barriers, making it not just five percent duties but thirty percent, forty percent--" "Lou," said his wife, "what does any of this have to do with this movie?" "This movie? These goddamn movies? Well, of course, they're not new either, you knowWe had a pinochle club, this is years agoyou remember, the Friday Night Club? And chanel pearls we had a guy in the electrical businessYou remember him, Seymour, Abe Sacks?" "Sure," the Swede said "Well, I hate to tell you but he had all these kind of movies right in his houseOn Mulberry Street, where we used to go with the kids to eat Chinks, was a saloon where you could go in and buy whatever filth you wantedAnd you know something? I watched five minutes and I went back in the kitchen and, to his credit, so did my dear friend, he's dead now, a wonderful fella, my mind is going, the glove cutter, what the hell was his name--" "Al Haberman," said his wifeThe two of us just played gin for an hour, until there was this hullabaloo in the living room where they were showing the movie, and what happened was the whole damn movie, the camera, the whole what-do-you-call-it caught fireI couldn't have been happierThat is thirty, forty years ago, and to this day I remember sitting with Al Haberman playing cards while the rest of chanel classic bag them were drooling like idiots in the living room He was by now telling this to Orcutt, directing his remarks solely at himAs though, despite the evidence of the drunken woman Lou Levov was sitting next to, despite the incontrovertible evidence of so much of Jewish lore, the anarchy of a highborn Gentile remained essentially unimaginable to him, and Orcutt, therefore, of everyone at the table, could best appreciate the platitude he was getting atThey're supposed to be the dependable ones in control of themselvesAren't they? They marked the territoryDidn't they? They made the rules, the very rules that the rest of us who came here have agreed to followCould Orcutt fail to admire him for sitting in that kitchen, sitting there patiently playing gin until at last the forces of good overcame the forces of evil and that dirty movie went up in smoke back in 1935? "Well, I'm sorry to say, MrLevov, that you can't keep it out any longer dior saddle just by playing cards," Orcutt told him"That was a way to keep it out that doesn't exist any longer "Keep what out?" Lou Levov asked "What you're talking about," said OrcuttAbnormality cloaked as ideologyThe perpetual protestTime was you could step away from it, you could make a stand against itAs you point out, you could even just play cards against itBut these days it's getting harder and harder to find reliefThe grotesque is supplanting everything commonplace that people love about this countryToday, to be what they call 'repressed' is a source of shame to people--as not to be repressed used to be "That is true, that is trueLet me tell you about Al HabermanYou want to talk about the old-style world and what used to be, let's talk about AlA wonderful fella, Al, a handsome fellaGot rich cutting glovesYou could in those daysA husband and a wife who had any ambition could get a few skins and make some glovesEnded up in a small fake cartier watches room, two men cutting, a couple of women sewing, they could make the gloves, they could press them and ship themThey made money, they were their own bosses, they could work sixty hours a weekWay, way back when Henry Ford was paying the unheard-of sum of a dollar a day, a fine table cutter would make five dollars a dayBut look, in those days it was nothing for an ordinary woman to own twenty, twenty-five pair of glovesA woman used to have a glove wardrobe, different gloves for every outfit--different colors, different styles, different lengthsA woman wouldn't go outside without a pair in any weatherIn those days it wasn't unusual for a woman to spend two, three hours at the glove counter and try on thirty pair of gloves, and the lady behind the desk had a sink and she would wash her hands between each colorIn a fine ladies' glove, we had quarter sizes into the fours and up to eight and a halfGlove cutting is a wonderful trade--was, buy chanel bag an

Friday, 01. October 2010

One day a big red, white, and blue banner...

By francoeursph, 10:26
One day a big red, white, and blue banner appears--"Greatly Expanded! New! New! New! McPherson's Store!"--announcing the grand opening on the Fourth of JulyHe has to sit Dawn down and tell her they are going to shop at the new store like everyone else and, though for a while it will not be easy for them, eventuallyHe cannot go into the new store without remembering the old store, even though the Russ Hamlins have retired and the new store is owned by a young couple from Easton who care nothing about the past and who, in addition to an expanded general store, have put in a bakery that turns out delicious cakes and pies as well as bread and rolls baked fresh every dayAt the back of the store, alongside the post office window, there is now a little counter where you can buy a cup of coffee and a fresh bun and sit and chat with your neighbor or read your vintage chanel jewelry paper if you want toMcPherson's is a tremendous improvement over Hamlin's, and soon everybody around seems to have forgotten their blown-up old-fashioned country store, except for the local Hamlins and for the LevovsDawn cannot go near the new place, simply refuses to go in there, while the Swede makes it his business, on Saturday mornings, to sit at the counter with his paper and a cup of coffee, despite what anybody who sees him there may be thinkingHe buys his Sunday paper there tooHe buys his stamps thereHe could bring stamps home from his office, could do all the family mailing in Newark, but he prefers to patronize the post office window at McPherson's and to linger there musing over the weather with young Beth McPherson the way he used to enjoy the same moment with Mary Hamlin, Russ's wife That is the outer lifeTo the best of his ability, it is omega aqua terra watch conducted just as it used to beBut now it is accompanied by an inner life, a gruesome inner life of tyrannical obsessions, stifled inclinations, superstitious expectations, horrible imaginings, fantasy conversations, unanswerable questionsSleeplessness and self-castigation night after nightUnflagging remorse, even for that kiss when she was eleven and he was thirty-six and the two of them, in their wet bathing suits, were driving home together from the Deal beachCould that have done it? Could anythinghsve done it? Could nothing have done it? Kiss me the way you k-k-kiss umumumoiher And in the everyday world, nothing to be done but respectably carry on the huge pretense of living as himself, with all the shame of masquerading as the ideal manLevov, Merry is working in the old dog and cat hospital on New Jersey Railroad Avenue in the Ironbound Section of chanel logo earrings Newark, 115 NRailroad Avenue, five minutes from Penn StationShe is there every dayIf you wait outside you can catch her leaving work and heading home just after four pShe doesn't know I'm writing this letter to youI am at the breaking point and can't go onI want to go away but I can leave her to no oneYou have to take overThough I warn you that if you tell her that it was from me that you discovered her whereabouts, you will be doing her serious harmShe is an incredible spiritShe has changed everything for meI got into this over my head because I couldn't ever resist her powerThat is too much to get into hereYou must believe me when I tell you that I never said anything or did anything other than what Merry demanded me to say and to doShe is an overwhelming forceYou and I were in the same boatI lied to her only onceThat was about what happened at the new omega watches hotelIf I had told her that you refused to make love with me she would have refused to take the moneyShe would have been back begging on the streetsI would never have made you suffer so if I hadn't the strength of my love for Merry to help meTo you that will sound crazyI am telling you it is soYour daughter is divineYou cannot be in the presence of such suffering without succumbing to its holy powerYou don't know what a nobody I was before I met MerryI was headed for oblivionBut I can't take anymore, you must not mention ME TO MERRY EXCEPT AS SOMEONE WHO TORMENTED YOU EXACTLY AS I DIDDO NOT MENTION THIS LETTER IF YOU CARE ABOUT MERRY'S SURVIVALYou must take every precaution before getting to the hospitalShe could not survive the FBIHer name is Mary StoltzShe must be allowed to fulfill her destinyWe can only stand as witnesses to the anguish that sanctifies omega de ville men's watches he

Thursday, 30. September 2010

You should have seen themThe two of them all...

By francoeursph, 10:24
You should have seen themThe two of them all smiles on their outward trip into the USAShe's post-Catholic, he's post-Jewish, together they're going to go out there to Old Rimrock to raise little post-toastiesInstead they get that fucking kid "What was wrong with Miss Dwyer?" "No house they lived in was rightNo amount of money in the bank was enoughHe set her up in the cattle businessHe set her up in the nursery tree businessHe took her to Switzerland for the world's best face-liftNot even into her fifties, still in her forties, but that's what the woman wants, so they schlep to Geneva for a face-lift from the guy who did Princess GraceHe would have been better off spending his life in Double A ballHe would have been better off knocking up some waitress down there in Phoenix and playing first base for the Mud-hensThat fucking kid! She stuttered, you knowSo to pay everybody back for her stuttering, she set off the bombHe took her to speech therapistsHe took her to clinics, to psychiatristsThere wasn't enough rolex watches ladies he could do for herAnd the reward? Boom! Why does this girl hate her father? This great father, this truly great fatherGood-looking, kind, providing, thinks about nothing really but them, his family-- why does she take off after him? That our own ridiculous father should have produced such a brilliant father--and that he should then produce her? Somebody tell me what caused itThe genetic need to separate? For that she has to run from Seymour Levov to Che Guevara? No, noWhat is the poison that caused it, that caused this poor guy to be placed outside his life for the rest of his life? He kept peering in from outside at his own lifeThe struggle of his life was to bury this thingBut could he? How? How could a big, sweet, agreeable putz like my brother be expected to deal with this bomb? One day life started laughing at him and it never let up That was as far as we got, as much of an earful as I was to hear from Jerry--anything more I wanted to know, I'd have to make up--because just then a small, gray-haired fake cartier watches woman in a brown pantsuit came up to introduce herself, and Jerry, not a man equipped by nature to stand around more than five seconds while someone else was getting a third party's attention, shot me a mock salute and disappeared, and when I went looking for him later, I heard that he'd had to leave, to catch a Newark plane back to Miami After I'd already written about his brother--which is what I would do in the months to come: think about the Swede for six, eight, sometimes ten hours at a stretch, exchange my solitude for his, inhabit this person least like myself, disappear into him, day and night try to take the measure of a person of apparent blankness and innocence and simplicity, chart his collapse, make of him, as time wore on, the most important figure of my life--just before I set about to alter names and disguise the most glaring marks of identification, I had the amateur's impulse to send Jerry a copy of the manuscript to ask what he thoughtIt was an impulse I quashed: I hadn't been writing and buy chanel bag publishing for nearly forty years not to know by now to quash it"That's not my brother," he'd tell me, "not in any wayYou've misrepresented himMy brother couldn't think like that, didn't talk like that," etc Yes, by this time Jerry might well have recovered the objectivity that had deserted him directly after the funeral, and with it the old resentment that helped make him the doctor at the hospital every-74 I body was afraid to talk to because he was never wrongAlso, unlike most people whose dear one winds up as a model for the life-drawing class, Jerry Levov would probably be amused rather than outraged by my failure to grasp the Swede's tragedy the way he didA strong possibility: Jerry's flipping derisively through my pages and giving me, item by item, the bad news"The wife was nothing like this, the kid was nothing like this--got even my father wrongI won't talk about what you do with meBut missing my father, man, that's missing the side of a barnLou Levov was a brute, manThis guy is a pushoverNo, we had tiffany and co necklace something over us light-years away from thatDad on the rampage--laid down the law and that was itNo, nothing bears the slightest resemblance tohere, for instance, giving my brother a mind, awarenessThis guy responds with consciousness to his lossBut my brother is a guy who had cognitive problems--this is nowhere like the mind he hadThis is the mind he didn't haveChrist, you even give him a mistressPerfectly misjudged, ZuckHow could a big man like you fuck up like this?" Well, Jerry wouldn't have gotten much of an argument from me had that turned out to be his reactionI had gone out to Newark and located the abandoned Newark Maid factory on a barren stretch of lower Central AvenueI went out to the Weequa-hic section to look at their house, now in disrepair, and to look at Keer Avenue, a street where it didn't seem like a good idea to get out of the car and walk up the driveway to the garage where the Swede used to practice his swing in the wintertimeThree black kids were sitting on the front steps eyeing me in the chanel earrings

Wednesday, 29. September 2010

The social face was gone--there was Dawn! But all...

By francoeursph, 10:24
The social face was gone--there was Dawn! But all this was a secret from others and had to beParticularly from the childSometimes after Dawn had been all day on her feet with the cows, he would pull his chair up to hers after dinner and he would rub her feet, and Merry would make a face and say, "Oh, Daddy, that's disgusting But that was the only truly demonstrative thing they ever did in front of herOtherwise there was just the usual affectionate stuff around the house that kids expect to see from parents and would miss if it didn't go onThe life they led together behind their bedroom door was a secret about which their daughter knew no more than anyone elseAnd on it went, on and on for years

Tuesday, 28. September 2010

Insane terroristic behavior coupled with that...

By francoeursph, 10:28
Insane terroristic behavior coupled with that bogus ideology--she had done the worst thing that anyone can doThat would be Shelly's interpretation and what could the Swede do to change it? How could he get Shelly to see it otherwise when he could no longer see it otherwise? Take him aside immediately, the Swede thought, tell him, explain to Shelly now, say whatever has to be said to stop him from taking action, to stop him from thinking that turning her in is his duty as a law-abiding citizen, that it's a way of protecting innocent lives--tell him, "She was usedShe was a compassionate childShe was a wonderful childShe was only a child, and she got herself in with the wrong peopleShe could never have masterminded anything like that on her ownShe just hated the warWe all felt angry and impotentBut she was a kid, a confused adolescent, a high-strung girlShe was too young to louis vuitton pink have had any real experience, and she got herself caught up in something that she did not understandShe was attempting to save livesI'm not trying to give a political excuse for her, because there is no political excuse--there is no justification, noneBut you can't just look at the appalling effect of what she didShe had her reasons, which were very strong for her, and the reasons don't matter now--she has changed her philosophy and the war is overNone of us really know all that happened and none of us can really know whyThere is more behind it, much, much more than we can understandShe was wrong, of course--she made a tragic, terrible, ghastly mistakeThere's no defense of her to be madeBut she's not a risk to anyone anymoreShe is now a skinny, pathetic wreck of a girl who wouldn't hurt a flyShe's quiet, she's harmlessShe's not a hardened criminal, ShellyShe is a broken kelly hermes bags creature who did something terrible and who regrets it to the bottom of her soulWhat good will it do to call the police? Of course justice must be served, but she is no longer a dangerThere is no need for you to get involvedWe don't have to call the police to protect anyoneAnd there's no need for vengeanceVengeance has been taken on her, believe meThe question is not if she's guiltyThe question is what is to be done nowI will look after herShe won't do anything--I'll see to thatI'll see that she is taken care of, that she is given helpShelly, give me a chance to bring her back to human life--don't call the police!" But he knew what Shelly would think: Sheila had done enough for that familyThat family was in real trouble now, but there was no more help from DrThis wasn't a faceliftFour people were deadThat girl should get the electric chairYes, the number four would transform old omega watches even Shelly into an outraged citizen ready to pull the switchHe would go ahead and turn her in because she was a little bitch who deserved it "That second time? Oh, we went everywhere," Dawn was saying"It doesn't really matter in Europe where you go, everywhere you go there are things that are beautiful, and we sort of followed that path But the police knewJerry has already called the FBITo give Jerry her addressTo sit here so battered as to overlook the implications of disclosing what Merry had done! Battered, doing nothing--holding Dawn's hand, thinking back again to Atlantic City, to the Beau Rivage, to Merry dancing with the headwaiter--mindless of the consequences of his reckless disclosure, bereft of his lifelong talent for being Swede Levov, instead floating free of the battering ram that is this world, dreaming, dreaming, helplessly dreaming, while down in tiffany heart tag Florida the hotheaded brother who thought the worst of him and wasn't a brother to him at all, who'd been antagonized from the beginning by all the Swede had been blessed with, by that impossible perfection they'd both had to contend with, the inflamed and willful and ruthless brother who never did anything halfway, who would like nothing better than a reckoning--yes, a final reckoning for all the world to see He'd turned her inNot his brother, not Shelly Salzman, but he, he was the one who'd done itWhat would it have taken to keep my mouth shut? What did I expect to get by opening it? Relief? Child-417 ish relief? Their reaction? I was after something so ridiculous as their reaction? By opening his mouth he had made things as bad as they could be--by retelling to them what Merry had told him, the Swede had done it: turned her in for killing four peopleNow he had planted his own mulberry roxanne

Monday, 27. September 2010

It had to do with the immolations--they...

By francoeursph, 10:38
It had to do with the immolations--they stoppedThere were five, six, seven immolations and then there were no more, and shortly thereafter Merry did become herself again, thinking again about things immediate to her daily life and more appropriate to her years When this South Vietnamese president, Diem, the man against whom the martyred Buddhist monks had been directing their protest--when some months later he was assassinated (according to a CBS Sunday morning show, assassinated by the USA, by the CIA, who had propped him up in power in the first place), the news seemed to pass Merry by, and the Swede didn't convey it to herBy then this place called Vietnam no longer even existed for Merry, if it ever had except as an alien, unimaginable backdrop for a ghastly TV spectacle that had embedded itself in her impressionable mind when she was eleven years old She never spoke again of the martyrdom of the Buddhist monks, even after she became so committed to her own political protestThe fate of those monks back in 1963 appeared to have nothing whatsoever to do with what galvanized into expression, in 1968, a newly hatched vehemence against capitalist America's imperialist involvement in a peasant war of national liberationand yet her father spent days and nights trying to convince himself that no other explanation existed, that nothing else sufficiently awful had ever happened 2.55 chanel to her, nothing causal even remotely large enough or shocking enough to explain how his daughter could be the bomberAngela Davis, a black philosophy professor of about Rita Cohen's age--born in Alabama in 1944, eight years before the birth in New Jersey of the Rimrock Bomber--a Communist professor at UCLA who is against the war, is tried in San Francisco for kidnapping, murder, and conspiracyShe is charged with supplying guns used in an armed attempt to free three black San Quentin convicts during their trialA shotgun that killed the trial judge is said to have been purchased by her only days before the courthouse battleFor two months she lived underground, dodging the FBI, until she was apprehended in New York and extradited to CaliforniaAll around the world, as far away as France and Algeria and the Soviet Union, her supporters claim that she is the victim of a political frame-upEverywhere she is transported by the police as a prisoner, blacks and whites are waiting in the nearby streets, holding up placards for the TV cameras and shouting, "Free Angela! End political repression! End racism! End the war!" Her hair reminds the Swede of Rita CohenEvery time he sees that bush encircling her head he is reminded of what he should have done that afternoon in the hotelHe should not have let her get away from him, no matter what Now he watches the news to see Angela DavisHe reads omega 18k watch everything he can about herHe knows that Angela Davis can get him to his daughterHe remembers how, when Merry was still at home, he went into her room one Saturday when she was off in New York, opened the bottom drawer of the dresser and, seated at her desk, read through everything in there, all that political stuff, the pamphlets, the paperbacks, the mimeographed booklets with the satiric cartoonsThere was a copy of The Communist ManifestoWhere did she get that? Not in Old RimrockWho was supplying her with all this literature? Bill and MelissaThese weren't just diatribes against the war--they were written by people wanting to overthrow capitalism and the Ugovernment, people screaming for violence and revolutionIt was awful for him to come upon passages that, being the good student she was, she had neatly underlined, but he could not stop readingand now he believes he can remember something in that drawer written by Angela DavisThere was no way of his knowing for sure because the FBI had confiscated it all, put all those publications into evidence bags, sealed them, and removed them from the houseThey had dusted her room, looking for a solid set of fingerprints that they could use to match up with anything incriminatingThey collected the household phone bills to trace Merry's callsThey searched her room for hiding places: pried up floorboards from beneath her rug, removed costume chanel jewelry wainscoting from the walls, took the globe off the ceiling light--they went through the clothes in her closet, looking for things hidden in the sleevesAfter the bombing, the state police stopped all traffic on Arcady Hill Road, closed off the area, and twelve FBI agents spent sixteen hours combing the house from the attic to the basement

Sunday, 26. September 2010

The family had never seemed so wrecked as...

By francoeursph, 10:32
The family had never seemed so wrecked as thisDespite all that he had summoned up to lessen the aftershock of the day's horror and to prevent himself from cracking--despite the resolve with which he had rearmed himself after hurrying through the underpass and finding his car still there, undamaged, where he had left it on that grim Down Neck street

Despite all that he had summoned up to lessen the...

By francoeursph, 10:32
Despite all that he had summoned up to lessen the aftershock of the day's horror and to prevent himself from cracking--despite the resolve with which he had rearmed himself after hurrying through the underpass and finding his car still there, undamaged, where he had left it on that grim Down Neck street

Saturday, 25. September 2010

The two of them all smiles on their outward trip...

By francoeursph, 20:23
The two of them all smiles on their outward trip into the USAShe's post-Catholic, he's post-Jewish, together they're going to go out there to Old Rimrock to raise little post-toastiesInstead they get that fucking kid "What was wrong with Miss Dwyer?" "No house they lived in was rightNo amount of money in the bank was enoughHe set her up in the cattle businessHe set her up in the nursery tree businessHe took her to Switzerland for the world's best face-liftNot even into her fifties, still in her forties, but that's what the woman wants, so they schlep to Geneva for a face-lift from the guy who did Princess GraceHe would have been better off spending his life in Double A ballHe would have been better off knocking up some waitress down there in Phoenix and playing first base for the Mud-hensThat fucking kid! She stuttered, you knowSo to pay everybody back for her stuttering, she set off the bombHe took her to speech therapistsHe took her to clinics, to psychiatristsThere wasn't enough he could do for herAnd the gucci purses reward? Boom! Why does this girl hate her father? This great father, this truly great fatherGood-looking, kind, providing, thinks about nothing really but them, his family-- why does she take off after him? That our own ridiculous father should have produced such a brilliant father--and that he should then produce her? Somebody tell me what caused itThe genetic need to separate? For that she has to run from Seymour Levov to Che Guevara? No, noWhat is the poison that caused it, that caused this poor guy to be placed outside his life for the rest of his life? He kept peering in from outside at his own lifeThe struggle of his life was to bury this thingBut could he? How? How could a big, sweet, agreeable putz like my brother be expected to deal with this bomb? One day life started laughing at him and it never let up That was as far as we got, as much of an earful as I was to hear from Jerry--anything more I wanted to know, I'd have to make up--because just then a small, gray-haired woman in a brown pantsuit came up to omega seamaster watch introduce herself, and Jerry, not a man equipped by nature to stand around more than five seconds while someone else was getting a third party's attention, shot me a mock salute and disappeared, and when I went looking for him later, I heard that he'd had to leave, to catch a Newark plane back to Miami After I'd already written about his brother--which is what I would do in the months to come: think about the Swede for six, eight, sometimes ten hours at a stretch, exchange my solitude for his, inhabit this person least like myself, disappear into him, day and night try to take the measure of a person of apparent blankness and innocence and simplicity, chart his collapse, make of him, as time wore on, the most important figure of my life--just before I set about to alter names and disguise the most glaring marks of identification, I had the amateur's impulse to send Jerry a copy of the manuscript to ask what he thoughtIt was an impulse I quashed: I hadn't been writing and publishing for nearly forty years not to know discount tiffany's necklace by now to quash it"That's not my brother," he'd tell me, "not in any wayYou've misrepresented himMy brother couldn't think like that, didn't talk like that," etc Yes, by this time Jerry might well have recovered the objectivity that had deserted him directly after the funeral, and with it the old resentment that helped make him the doctor at the hospital every-74 I body was afraid to talk to because he was never wrongAlso, unlike most people whose dear one winds up as a model for the life-drawing class, Jerry Levov would probably be amused rather than outraged by my failure to grasp the Swede's tragedy the way he didA strong possibility: Jerry's flipping derisively through my pages and giving me, item by item, the bad news"The wife was nothing like this, the kid was nothing like this--got even my father wrongI won't talk about what you do with meBut missing my father, man, that's missing the side of a barnLou Levov was a brute, manThis guy is a pushoverNo, we had something over us light-years away from thatDad on louis vuitton duffle bag the rampage--laid down the law and that was itNo, nothing bears the slightest resemblance tohere, for instance, giving my brother a mind, awarenessThis guy responds with consciousness to his lossBut my brother is a guy who had cognitive problems--this is nowhere like the mind he hadThis is the mind he didn't haveChrist, you even give him a mistressPerfectly misjudged, ZuckHow could a big man like you fuck up like this?" Well, Jerry wouldn't have gotten much of an argument from me had that turned out to be his reactionI had gone out to Newark and located the abandoned Newark Maid factory on a barren stretch of lower Central AvenueI went out to the Weequa-hic section to look at their house, now in disrepair, and to look at Keer Avenue, a street where it didn't seem like a good idea to get out of the car and walk up the driveway to the garage where the Swede used to practice his swing in the wintertimeThree black kids were sitting on the front steps eyeing me in the carI explained to them, "A friend of mine used to live chloe white

Thursday, 23. September 2010

Archer added, partly to distract her daughter's...

By francoeursph, 20:23
Archer added, partly to distract her daughter's attention from forbidden topics: "Poor Regina! Her Thanksgiving hasn't been a very cheerful one, I'm afraidHave you heard the rumours about Beaufort's speculations, Sillerton?" MrJackson nodded carelesslyEvery one had heard the rumours in question, and he scorned to confirm a tale that was already common property A gloomy silence fell upon the partyNo one really liked Beaufort, and it was not wholly unpleasant to think the worst of his private life

Wednesday, 22. September 2010

You can't imagine the noise out there, the sewing...

By francoeursph, 20:30
You can't imagine the noise out there, the sewing machines whining, the clicking machines pounding, hundreds of machines going all at once, and right in the middle his desk and his telephone and the great man himself The owner of the glove factory, but he would always sweep his own floors, especially around the cutters, where they cut the leather, because he wanted to see from the size of the scraps who was losing money for himI told him early on to fuck off, but Seymour wasn't built like meHe had a big, generous nature and with that they really raked him over the coals, all the impossible onesUn-satisfiable father, unsatisfiable wives, and the little murderer herself, the monster daughterThe solid thing he once wasAt Newark Maid he was an absolute, unequivocal successCharmed a lot of people into giving their all for Newark fairy bag prada MaidVery adroit businessmanKnew how to cut a glove, knew how to cut a dealHad an in on Seventh Avenue with the fashion peopleThe designers there would tell the guy anythingThat's how he stayed abreast of the packIn New York, he was always stopping into the department stores, shopping the competition, looking for something unique about the other guy's product, always in the stores taking a look at the leather, stretching the glove, doing everything just the way my old man taught himDid most of the selling himselfHandled all the big house accountsThe lady buyers went nuts for SeymourHe'd come over to New York, take these tough Jewish broads out to dinner--buyers who could make or break you--wine and dine them, and they'd fall head over heels for the guyInstead of him buttering them up, by the end of the evening they'd be buttering him upCome cartier ronde Christmastime they'd be sending my brother the theater tickets and the case of Scotch rather than the other way aroundHe knew how to get the confidence of these people just by being himselfHe'd find out a buyer's favorite charity, get a ticket to the annual dinner at the Waldorf-Astoria, show up like a movie star in his tuxedo, on the spot make a fat donation to cancer, muscular dystrophy, whatever it was, United Jewish Appeal--next thing Newark Maid had the accountKnew all the stuff: what colors are going to be next season's colors, whether the length is going to be up or downAttractive, responsible, hardworking guyA couple of unpleasant strikes in the sixties, a lot of tensionBut his employees are out on the picket line and they see him pull up in the car and the women who sew the gloves start falling all over themselves black fendi spy bag apologizing for not being at the machinesThey were more loyal to my brother than they were to their unionEverybody loved him, a perfectly decent person who could have escaped stupid guilt foreverNo reason for him to know anything about anything except glovesInstead he is plagued with shame and uncertainty and pain for the rest of his lifeThe incessant questioning of a conscious adulthood was never something that obstructed my brotherHe got the meaning for his life some other wayI don't mean he was simpleSome people thought he was simple because all his life he was so kindBut Seymour was never that simpleSimple is never that simpleStill, the self-questioning did take some time to reach himAnd if there's anything worse than self-questioning coming too early in life, it's self-questioning coming too lateHis life was blown up by that bombThe real louis vuitton scarf victim of that bombing was him "What bomb?" "Little Merry's darling bomb "I don't know what 'Merry's darling bomb' isThe 'Rimrock Bomber' was Seymour's daughterThe high school kid who blew up the post office and killed the doctorThe kid who stopped the war in Vietnam by blowing up somebody out mailing a letter at five aA doctor on his way to the hospitalCharming child," he said in a voice that was all contempt and still didn't seem to contain the load of contempt and hatred that he felt"Brought the war home to Lyndon Johnson by blowing up the post office in the general storePlace is so small the post office is in the general store--just a window at the back of the general store and a couple rows of those boxes with the locks, and that's the whole post officeGet your stamps right in there with the Rinso and the Lifebuoy and the chanel pearls L

Tuesday, 21. September 2010

In the Kid's career as the spark-plug newcomer to...

By francoeursph, 20:16
In the Kid's career as the spark-plug newcomer to a last-place Brooklyn Dodger club, each triumph is rewarded with a punishing disappointment or a crushing accidentThe staunch attachment that develops between the lonely, homesick Kid and the Dodgers' veteran catcher, Dave Leonard, who successfully teaches him the ways of the big leagues and who, "with his steady brown eyes behind the plate," shepherds him through a no-hitter, comes brutally undone six weeks into the season, when the old-timer is dropped overnight from the club's roster"Here was a speed they didn't often mention in baseball: the speed with which a player rises--and goes down" Then, after the Kid wins his fifteenth consecutive game--a rookie record that no pitcher in either league has ever exceeded--he's accidentally knocked off his feet in the shower by boisterous teammates who are horsing around after the great victory, and the elbow injury sustained in the fall leaves him unable ever to pitch againHe rides the bench for the rest of the year, pinch-hitting because of his strength at the plate, and then, over the snowy winter--back home in Connecticut spending days on the farm and evenings at the drugstore, well known now but really Grandma's boy all over again--he works diligently by himself on Dave Leonard's directive to keep his swing level ("A tendency to keep his right shoulder down, to swing up, was his worst fault"), suspending a ball from a string out in the barn and whacking at it on cold winter mornings with "his beloved bat" until he has worked himself into a sweat' The clean sweet sound of a bat squarely meeting a ball" By the next season he is ready to return to the Dodgers as a speedy right fielder, bats 25 in the second spot, and leads his team down to the wire as a contenderOn the last day of the season, in a game against the Giants, who are in first place by only half a game, the Kid kindles the Dodgers' hitting attack, and in the bottom of the fourteenth--with two down, two men on, and the Dodgers ahead on a run scored by the Kid miu miu clutch with his audacious, characteristically muscular baserunning--he makes the final game-saving play, a running catch smack up against the right center-field wallThat tremendous daredevil feat sends the Dodgers into the World Series and leaves him "writhing in agony on the green turf of deep right center Tunis concludes like this: "Dusk descended upon a mass of players, on a huge crowd pouring onto the field, on a couple of men carrying an inert form through the mob on a stretcherThere was a clap of thunderRain descended upon the Polo Grounds Descended, descended, a clap of thunder, and thus ends the boys' Book of Job I was ten and I had never read anything like itI could not believe itThe reprehensible member of the Dodgers is Razzle Nugent, a great pitcher but a drunk and a hothead, a violent bully fiercely jealous of the KidAnd yet it is not Razzle carried off "inert" on a stretcher but the best of them all, the farm orphan called the Kid, modest, serious, chaste, loyal, naive, undiscourageable, hard-working, soft-spoken, courageous, a brilliant athlete, a beautiful, austere boyNeedless to say, I thought of the Swede and the Kid as one and wondered how the Swede could bear to read this book that had left me near tears and unable to sleepHad I had the courage to address him, I would have asked if he thought the ending meant the Kid was finished or whether it meant the possibility of yet another comebackThe word "inert" terrified meWas the Kid killed by the last catch of the year? Did the Swede know? Did he care? Did it occur to him that if disaster could strike down the Kid from Tomkinsville, it could come and strike the great Swede down too? Or was a book about a sweet star savagely and unjustly punished--a book about a greatly gifted innocent whose worst fault is a tendency to keep his right shoulder down and swing up but whom the thundering heavens destroy nonetheless--simply a book between those "Thinker" bookends up on his shelf? Keer Avenue was where the rich Jews lived--or rich they seemed to most of the omega automatic seamaster families who rented apartments in the two-, three-, and four-family dwellings with the brick stoops integral to our after-school sporting life: the crap games, the blackjack, and the stoop-ball, endless until the cheap rubber ball hurled mercilessly against the steps went pop and split at the seamHere, on this grid of locust-tree-lined streets into which the Lyons farm had been partitioned during the boom years of the early twenties, the first postimmigrant generation of Newark's Jews had regrouped into a community that took its inspiration more from the mainstream of American life than from the Polish shtetl their Yiddish-speaking parents had re-created around Prince Street in the impoverished Third WardThe Keer Avenue Jews, with their finished basements, their screened-in porches, their flagstone front steps, seemed to be at the forefront, laying claim like audacious pioneers to the normalizing American amenitiesAnd at the vanguard of the vanguard were the Levovs, who had bestowed upon us our very own Swede, a boy as close to a goy as we were going to get The Levovs themselves, Lou and Sylvia, were parents neither more nor less recognizably American than my own Jersey-born Jewish mother and father, no more or less refined, well spoken, or cultivatedAnd that to me was a big surpriseOther than the one-family Keer Avenue house, there was no division between us like the one between the peasants and the aristocracy I was learning about at schoolLevov was, like my own mother, a tidy housekeeper, impeccably well mannered, a nice-looking woman tremendously considerate of everyone's feelings, with a way of making her sons feel important--one of the many women of that era who never dreamed of being free of the great domestic enterprise centered on the childrenFrom their mother both Levov boys had inherited the long bones and fair hair, though since her hair was redder, frizzier, and her skin still youthfully freckled, she looked less startlingly Aryan than they did, less vivid a genetic oddity among the faces in our chanel big streets The father was no more than five seven or eight--a spidery man even more agitated than the father whose anxieties were shaping my ownLevov was one of those slum-reared Jewish fathers whose rough-hewn, undereducated perspective goaded a whole generation of striving, collegeeducated Jewish sons: a father for whom everything is an unshakable duty, for whom there is a right way and a wrong way and nothing in between, a father whose compound of ambitions, biases, and beliefs is so unruffled by careful thinking that he isn't as easy to escape from as he seemsLimited men with limitless energy

The conditions from which she had fled were...

By francoeursph, 11:30
The conditions from which she had fled were intolerable, past speaking of, past believing: she was young, she was frightened, she was desperate?what more natural than that she should be grateful to her rescuer? The pity was that her gratitude put her, in the law's eyes and the world's, on a par with her abominable husbandArcher had made her understand this, as he was bound to do